A day AfTer Christmas at OU..

as usual bila dah duk KL nie kerja asyik berjalan2 jaa..kerja menghabiskan segala2 mak nenek duit yang ader dalam purse.. tapi dah kata jalan2 comfirmlah bagi orang macam aku nih berjalan-jalan means jalan sahaja bukan kuar duit untuk buy things...

first destinasi kami ialah at ONE UTAMA saja kuar nak tgok mall yang orang kata syok nak p.. (padahal da banyak kali da aku datang sini..) jeng jengg jenggg..

kami datang kat sini saja lah berjalan,cuci cuci mata, tgok mat mat saleh lalu lalang kowt2 ader yang berkenan kaa..hahahhaha.. macam x logik jaa plak p OU just nak tgok mamat saleh2 yang x seberapa nak handsome tuh katakan..

aku dan roommate,anum datang OU dengan Teksi..kan kami nie kira berharta sikit..hahahhaha..tuh yang g OU dengan teksi.. :) terbaik.. tambang pom cun rm22+rm1.60 untuk TOL PECHALA LINK.. :)
org kata 'by hook or by crook' nila nak g jugak mmg akan cari pelbagai ikhtiarlah untuk g sana gak kan..

sesampai jew kat OU tuh kami pom pusing2 satu OU saja window shopping katakan.. :) aku dengan anum satu kepala so x der lah susah sangat nak communicate.. just jalan then penat stop.. last2 2 jam lebih kami pusing satu OU tanpa beli apa apa hanya ber 'photo shoot' jaa lebih..

lastly kami singgah at SECRET RECIPE.. ak order moist chocolate cake and mocha..anum, indulgent cake and ice lemon tea. :)

Keluar hari nie mmg syok..penat pom dapat tp at least dapat kuar hilangkan stress yang ader :) thanks anum for the great hangout today.. hope kita kua jalan2 lagi yeee..

#kalaulah aku dapat cari pakwe yang satu kepala ngan aku mmg syok..blh kuar ikut suka hati aku jaa.. hehhehehe.. for those yang bakal jadi pasangan saya tuh hope anda sudi sudilah diri anda untuk menemani dan melayan karenah saya yang kebudak budakkan ini.. :)

    

if there is tomorrow 2 me...

story...

10th grade
As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A Few Years Later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.

da sadness love story...started wit da feeling 2 being frens but it's became more than frens..
so plzz say it dat u love him/her
i'm sure dat u r shy n afraid if he/she reject u but at least u r trying 2 tell da truth dat u like him/her.
don't be like tis story dear..
i'm really hope dat u'll create ur own love story wit happy ending not be like tis ending..
da sadness ending..

talk with him

ary nie da bnyak kali kot aku cakap ngan dia tp aku still x dapat nk ucapkan pew yang aku rasa..
memang susah untuk kita ucapkan pew yang kita rasa nie bub kita takut pada penerimaan...
aku da cuba nak ucapkan yang aku suka dia tp biar lah dlu bub aku kena make sure yang cinta aku kat allah tu da cukup lepas tu pada rasullullah lepas tu pada mak ayah aku den baru lah kat dia..tp tu pown kalau dia sanggup tggu aku lah..
aku x sure dia sanggup tggu aku x bub mybe ambik banyak mase la..sebab aku nie bukan perfect sangat..
untuk cintai allah nie bukan satu benda yang mudah bg aku bub aku bukan muslimah n bukan jugak yang taat pada suruhan tapi aku mampu untuk menyatakan yang sekarang nie cinta aku pada allah masih lagi sikit..x sebanyak cinta aku pada dia.jadi aku harus memperbanyakkan ibadah aku untuk allah..
aku x nk hanyut lam arus percintaan tnpa ader rasa cinta n sayang aku kat allah,rasulullah n mak ayah aku..
papew pown time cakap ngan dia memang bermakna untuk aku..
aku sayang dia tapi x bermakna aku x sayang allah,rasulullah n mak ayah aku..
kelas fa td memang aku suka kot tp tawaran aku camner lak..
aku perlu buat apew untuk lestarikan impian aku??
ahhhh
tension kot..

study with him..

time yg ak pling suka bile study...
but study ngan dia mmg best gler..but u oll know y??ak skarg tkut nk rapat ngan dia bub mimpi ak yg bodoh 2 jew la..sumenye sal mimpi bodoh 2..der ke ak mimpi yg 'awek' dia dtg simbah asid kat ak bub ak rapat ngan boy dia(mamat yg ak minat nie) ak pown x taw nape ak ley mimpi cam2..takut glew..
smpai skarg mimpi 2 asyk2 membelenggu dri aku..sampai ak nk dekat ngan dia pun aku tkut...
law dia tnyer sal study ngan ak,ak just tunjuk jew pe yg patut without kuarkan aku punyer suara..
ak takut law mimpi 2 betul..
ak mmg sayangkan dia tp law dia x sayang kat ak,ak x ley paksa dia tuk sayang ak gak..
bub 2 ak nk ucap ak suka dia ssah..ak takut..mmglah 6t ak akan menyesal bub masa yg ak ader ngan dia ak x ucapkan tp x salah rasanya law ak tgok orang yang ak sayang bahagia..biarpun tnpa aku..yg ak pasti masa yg ak ngan dia spent 2 akn jd kenangan tuk ak..smpai blew2..
ak akn ingat...bub dia yg ak sayang..

first time jumpe dia..

aku first time jumpe dia mase start klaz...

mmg x ley nk lupa waktu..

camne aku layan dia n camne dia layan aku...

yg aku x blah dia panggil aku kakak..

sedangkan dia 2 tua dr aku la..

last2 aku wak x lyan jew..
malaz aku..alih2 time blajar trading profit n loss dia ley lak tgur aku..
tp soklan dia 'sapa dina erk??'
huhuhu...sapew x tension..mmg aku sakit aty glew tp aku layan la dia..
bub nie tntg pljaran so x kn ak nk buat x endah jew..
dia mntak jawapan aku..aku just bg jew la..last2 dia fotostat aku punyer jawapan..
den mase aku lpas kuar klaz ptg 2 terserempak ngan dia kat tangga..
der kew patut dia panggil aku 'kakak' ahhh..
mmg tension glew..
dia bg paper aku 2 den aku just blah jew dr s2..
mlaz nk lyan da..
aku penat gler..

bila kita suka seseorang kita kenalah ucapkan..

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apew rasanya bila kita suka seseorang???

tp hakikatnya kita x berani nk ucapkannya??

aku pelik ngan orang sekarang..

law betul suka just said it..

aku bkan apa..aku x nk nanti duk merana sorang2 jer..taw2 jew la bila da suka someone orang kata makan x kenyang,tidor x lena, mandi x basah...macam ag la..tension aku dengar..

tapi napa ssah sgt nk ucapkan???memang la benda nie x terjadi kat aku tp at least y not just say it..

yang aku taw law aku da suka kat orang 2 aku akan bgtaw dia bub aku x nak kehilangan dia lam hidup aku.. memang hidup kita nie da sempurna.parents ader..siblings pown ader..tp kita x sempurna lam mencari pasangan hidup kita..aku x pasti kenapa n bagaimana untuk aku tulis kat sini tp setiap orang 2 dari dalam kandungan ibu lagi sudah ditulis akan nasib jodoh n kematian...memang jodoh da di tetapkan tapi kita juga perlu mencarinya..bukan cinta yang mencari kita..

buat sesiapa yang suka someone 2 ucapkanlah..

'if u love someone,u said it,out loud or da moment just passed u by' so ucapkan lah cinta kita pada mereka yang kita suka..tapi kalau dia x dapat terima cinta kita, jangan lah kita mengemisnya lagi..cukuplah hanya dengan berterus terang ngan dia yang kita suka dia..terima ataw x 2 hal lain..

tp ingat walaupun cinta kita ditolak tapi kita berani untuk luahkannya..dan ingatlah jangan mengemis cinta dari orang yang x sudi menerima nya tp berikanlah cinta kita kepada mereka yang sudi menerimanya bukan kerana rupa paras kita,tubuh badan kita n nafsu tetapi pada budi bahasa kita..